I am in a long distance relationship.
It is like life is a constant countdown. Always counting down the days until I get to see him and then counting down the hours we have to spend together. It is a mixture of excitement and anxiety. It can be overwhelming sometimes and it messes up my head if I think about it too much so I try to focus on the present moment as much as I can.The worst is when you don’t know when you will next see each other but as soon there is a date, the countdown begins again and the excitement grows.
There are bad days. The days when I am tired and all my body wants it’s his warmth. The days when I wish I could hold his hand, run my fingers through his hair or just smell his perfume. The days when he is the only person I want to spend time with but I can’t.
He is always on my mind, everyday and in everything I do. It is a honor to constantly have such beautiful thought and I appreciate that in some way he is always with me. However, it is hard knowing that I can’t fully share my life with him, it’s like there is always someone missing…I know exactly who it is but there is nothing I can do about it. It is specially hard when it’s a special day or when I am experiencing amazing things and all I want is to share them with him.
A long distance relationship is the ultimate test for couples. It is proving each other and yourself that your relationship is much more than just physical. You have to trust, love and most importantly respect each other. Long talks, deep eye contact and screen kisses become a routine during skype calls and even though you know it is silly you start treasuring all those small things.
I still get butterflies whenever I am going to see him. Everything we do is an adventure, even simple things like going for a walk or having breakfast. Everything is exciting…the way he looks at me makes me blush, his smile amazes me and every time we hold hands I consciously tell myself to remember the comforting felling. I treasure every single second I spend with him. And when we have to say goodbye…the idea that I will see him again one day makes me the happiest girl on earth.
I never planned to be in a long distance relationship, but life is a series of unexpected events and there is no way I am letting go of the person who I love the most because of it. I know he will do the same for me.
It will never be enough but it will always be worth it.